A Somali friend of mine gave Noah the nickname "Lucky". She said she's going to call him that because he's so lucky he got to come to America. I told her I'm the lucky one. While this seems like a cliche response, it's true. I'm certain my heart has changed as much as Noah's future. I thought that once we got to where we are....Noah home, most of the paperwork complete....my heart would be content. I would sigh with relief. Content literally means satisfied with what one is or has, not wanting more. The "problem" is I. Want. More. More financial burden, more grief in the process, more waiting, more adjusting, more ex-orphans, more fatherless no more, more precious sons and daughters. I. Want. Less. Less stuff, less "me" time, less quiet, less sleep, less convenience. And I'm praying hearts all across the nation, including yours, will be changed to feel the same.
I'm often told by Christians, "I think that's so great you all did that. I just don't really feel called to do that." It's sort of like missions. Everyone is so glad someone else is doing it, they can feel good about it being done without actually doing any of the hard part themselves.
When I was in the market in Ethiopia, telling the street boys I don't need any more gum, it was pointed out to me that this would likely have been Noah's unadopted future if he had survived to see his 5th birthday. A hungry street boy selling gum and toothbrushes to make it through another day. Sometime throughout each day when I look at that sweet toothless grin I see myself. There I was, destined for a hopeless future of desperate measures trying to make it through the day, but saved by God's grace I instead became a daughter full of hope. As shaken as I was at the thought of my son living on the street, subject to things I don't even want to type into print, the thought of him and myself being a spiritual orphan is far more painful....far more eternal.
So when a Christian tells me they aren't "called" to care for an orphan, I want to ask if they are glad they were "called" to be adopted. I totally get that there are legitimate reasons in certain times in life that a family cannot adopt right then. Countries have restrictions on parent's age/income, number/sex of children in the home already, etc. But the inconvenience another child will give you is not a reason to not extend the grace that's been given to you to an orphan. There is a little girl that is waiting for a forever family in an orphanage in Ethiopia. She's 6 and has HIV. I want nothing more than to be her mom. But because of our international move that is coming in a year or so we are not able to make that happen. I'm daily burdened for her and praying God will break the hearts of a family even more than he has broken mine and provide for her a forever family. Could it be you? Could you give her a forever family? While most of you skimmed right past that, maybe afraid to consider it, some of you might be contemplating what that would mean for your family to adopt an HIV positive child. Ask yourself what it would mean for you if you were not adopted by God through what Jesus did on the cross? What if He had not taken on the broken, dirty, sick mess that you were and made you a child? Now, instead of thinking of yourself, ask what it means for her and the over 140 million other orphans to not be adopted? What does it look like? I'm not trying to paint an emotional picture to pull at your heartstrings. I just want you to recognize the grace that's been given to you. I believe if we can do that, truly get a tiny grasp on what's been done for us, we can't help but pass it on.
Did you know if 7% of Christians adopted there would be no more orphans to be adopted?? 7%. To be honest (or continue to be) I struggle with getting really angry over this. Angry that we so willingly accept grace and are happy to be pulled out of our own miry pit but are so hesitant to give it to someone else. Angry that the people who worship the God who defends the fatherless only respond "that's so sad" and "what a shame". Angry that the people who are hold the Bible as their authority overlook that it says "pure religion is to look after orphans and widows". When we discussed the possibility of adopting the little girl I mentioned we were told by a couple people, "Some people really struggle with the fact that you can't help everyone. There will always be another orphan." This is so true, and I am one of the people with this problem. But a bigger problem is that we use this to comfort ourselves out of doing anything. We tell ourselves I can't adopt all the orphans so I won't do anything. The real problem is that the church can adopt all the orphans that are able to be adopted, but it is not. It doesn't even take the whole church...just 7% of it. I said before that there are legitimate reasons that families cannot adopt today. But I know that a lot more than 7% of those who profess Jesus as their Lord and Savior do not have a real legitimate reason. Will you be apart of the 7%?
I recognize not all orphans can be adopted. So maybe you can't adopt an orphan to be your child but you can help those orphans who will never be adopted be fed, be educated, and hear about the Father that they do have.
I look forward to when we are able to adopt again. Hopefully, the country we move to will allow us to do so. So for those who have asked what kind of problems I've had since bringing Noah home, it's probably not what you might expect. I have no problems with my new son, just with the number of orphans that are left fatherless.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
For KY Adoptive Parents...all the post stuff
This one is for all my friends who are bringing home their babies and trying to navigate social security cards, name changes, re-adopt or not?, etc...etc.... I had a hard time getting this information and it seemed to vary from person to person when I did get it. So in one concise post I'd like to share with you how I did it and it was actually quite easy once I figured out what I was doing!
***Disclaimer: if you live out of KY this will probably not pertain to you but it could be similar in your area of the country*****
Name Change: The most helpful piece of information I can give you is do this FIRST. You do NOT, I repeat do NOT need a social security number, birth certificate, etc to accomplish this. In fact, you don't don't even need your certificate of citizenship to change your baby's name. All you have to do is go to your local Probate court office and fill out some paperwork on their computer (you can not do this at your home computer). You do not need an appointment. We may have needed our adoption decree for this but I know we did not have to show his COC so we actually could have done this sooner. The fee in minimal...less than $20. But you do need 2 separate checks because one is a filing fee($8) that has to be paid separate. You will then be assigned a court date to come back. We got ours 2 days later and Dan went for this. I did not and Noah did not have to be present. He was there less than an hour and got our official documents stating our names as petitioners his previous name and new name. You can get "official" copies for I think $2(not sure) that you need to get social security card, birth cert etc, and "unofficial" copies for $.50 that can be used at places like your doctors office and school. They were very friendly and efficient here in Louisville. If you live in Louisville the number is (502) 595-4434, they are open Monday-Friday 8:30-4:30. It is located in the Brandeis Hall of Justice downtown. I called before we went and they were helpful and answered all my questions. We were there about 30 minutes for the initial paperwork.
Social Security Card: We did this next. Dan actually left the court from the official name change and walked straight to social security office (a couple blocks away from the court house). Again, Noah did not have to be present. Only children older than 12 need to appear in person. You must have ORIGINALS of the Certificate of Citizenship and adoption decree to complete this. He took everything we had on the adoption with him, including Noah's passport. She made copies of originals. You have to fill out a form that can be printed from www.ssa.gov. More information is on this site. We picked up his number and a temporary card the next day so we could amend our taxes and got the original card a week later. So if you're considering delaying name change to get taxes going it only took us 2 days to get a name change. And you can get name change before you get your COC, then when it arrives go get a social. Then you won't have to redo the social post name change.
Registering the adoption in KY: So I was confused, and am still not sure if I'm right, about readopting in the US and what that means. From what I understand because the adoption is final in Ethiopia the US views Noah as an immigrant living in our home, not necessarily as our son. In order to get a KY Birth Certificate (which I want because in the future there will be times for school, passport, etc he will need one) we need to either re-adopt him in the states OR register the adoption with the state. We chose to do the latter because it was free....yes something in this adoption is free. If someone can enlighten me on any reason I should re-adopt verses just getting it registered please share, because I found no good reason to pay a lawyer to do such. So to register the adoption in KY you can call Lori Fitch who works in the adoption services branch in Frankfort at (502) 564-2147 ex3569 or email her at Lori.FarisFitch@ky.gov and she will email you the application. You need to mail the application along with copies of your adoption decree and certificate of citizenship or proof of IR3 visa. We already had the COC so we mailed a copy of that. But from the application it appears you could do this before you get the COC if you mail a copy of child's visa (and we did not need a social to do this either). A couple weeks later we were mailed a certificate signed by the commissioner that our adoption is registered in the Commonwealth of Kentucky. Which now means the state of Ky recognizes the adoption and sees Noah as our son.
Birth Certificate: I believe you have to have already re-adopted or registered the adoption in order to get a birth certificate. Call Kristi Riley at the vital statistics office at (502) 564-4212 ext 3225 and let her know which one you have done. The paperwork is different depending on whether you readopted or registered. She will mail you a packet of paperwork with instructions. The application has to be notarized. She mailed me the packet the same day I called and I got it the next day. She also must have originals of the adoption decree, COC, etc. She even needs to see the home study. You can mail it to her and she will copy and mail back. But because I can't even begin to imagine calling USCIS and trying to get another COC because ours got lost in the mail we will be driving our documents to Frankfort and watching her copy them :) We will get the certificate the same day. We have not done this yet, since driving to Frankfort with a few little ones requires some planning.
Overall I have found our little state government much more efficient than the US government working across the pond...which is somewhat encouraging. So I hope this helps someone navigate the last few steps of making everything "official". A big thanks to my friend Amy who did all this before me and really provided all the information above....I am just passing it along! If you find any of this to become inaccurate (this is all based on my experience in the past 3 months) or you know of an easier way please share so everyone can benefit.
***Disclaimer: if you live out of KY this will probably not pertain to you but it could be similar in your area of the country*****
Name Change: The most helpful piece of information I can give you is do this FIRST. You do NOT, I repeat do NOT need a social security number, birth certificate, etc to accomplish this. In fact, you don't don't even need your certificate of citizenship to change your baby's name. All you have to do is go to your local Probate court office and fill out some paperwork on their computer (you can not do this at your home computer). You do not need an appointment. We may have needed our adoption decree for this but I know we did not have to show his COC so we actually could have done this sooner. The fee in minimal...less than $20. But you do need 2 separate checks because one is a filing fee($8) that has to be paid separate. You will then be assigned a court date to come back. We got ours 2 days later and Dan went for this. I did not and Noah did not have to be present. He was there less than an hour and got our official documents stating our names as petitioners his previous name and new name. You can get "official" copies for I think $2(not sure) that you need to get social security card, birth cert etc, and "unofficial" copies for $.50 that can be used at places like your doctors office and school. They were very friendly and efficient here in Louisville. If you live in Louisville the number is (502) 595-4434, they are open Monday-Friday 8:30-4:30. It is located in the Brandeis Hall of Justice downtown. I called before we went and they were helpful and answered all my questions. We were there about 30 minutes for the initial paperwork.
Social Security Card: We did this next. Dan actually left the court from the official name change and walked straight to social security office (a couple blocks away from the court house). Again, Noah did not have to be present. Only children older than 12 need to appear in person. You must have ORIGINALS of the Certificate of Citizenship and adoption decree to complete this. He took everything we had on the adoption with him, including Noah's passport. She made copies of originals. You have to fill out a form that can be printed from www.ssa.gov. More information is on this site. We picked up his number and a temporary card the next day so we could amend our taxes and got the original card a week later. So if you're considering delaying name change to get taxes going it only took us 2 days to get a name change. And you can get name change before you get your COC, then when it arrives go get a social. Then you won't have to redo the social post name change.
Registering the adoption in KY: So I was confused, and am still not sure if I'm right, about readopting in the US and what that means. From what I understand because the adoption is final in Ethiopia the US views Noah as an immigrant living in our home, not necessarily as our son. In order to get a KY Birth Certificate (which I want because in the future there will be times for school, passport, etc he will need one) we need to either re-adopt him in the states OR register the adoption with the state. We chose to do the latter because it was free....yes something in this adoption is free. If someone can enlighten me on any reason I should re-adopt verses just getting it registered please share, because I found no good reason to pay a lawyer to do such. So to register the adoption in KY you can call Lori Fitch who works in the adoption services branch in Frankfort at (502) 564-2147 ex3569 or email her at Lori.FarisFitch@ky.gov and she will email you the application. You need to mail the application along with copies of your adoption decree and certificate of citizenship or proof of IR3 visa. We already had the COC so we mailed a copy of that. But from the application it appears you could do this before you get the COC if you mail a copy of child's visa (and we did not need a social to do this either). A couple weeks later we were mailed a certificate signed by the commissioner that our adoption is registered in the Commonwealth of Kentucky. Which now means the state of Ky recognizes the adoption and sees Noah as our son.
Birth Certificate: I believe you have to have already re-adopted or registered the adoption in order to get a birth certificate. Call Kristi Riley at the vital statistics office at (502) 564-4212 ext 3225 and let her know which one you have done. The paperwork is different depending on whether you readopted or registered. She will mail you a packet of paperwork with instructions. The application has to be notarized. She mailed me the packet the same day I called and I got it the next day. She also must have originals of the adoption decree, COC, etc. She even needs to see the home study. You can mail it to her and she will copy and mail back. But because I can't even begin to imagine calling USCIS and trying to get another COC because ours got lost in the mail we will be driving our documents to Frankfort and watching her copy them :) We will get the certificate the same day. We have not done this yet, since driving to Frankfort with a few little ones requires some planning.
Overall I have found our little state government much more efficient than the US government working across the pond...which is somewhat encouraging. So I hope this helps someone navigate the last few steps of making everything "official". A big thanks to my friend Amy who did all this before me and really provided all the information above....I am just passing it along! If you find any of this to become inaccurate (this is all based on my experience in the past 3 months) or you know of an easier way please share so everyone can benefit.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Finally a Forever Family
We arrived home with Noah on Saturday, April 7th. Oh what a glorious day!
The girl love their little brother....a ton...
And I am one happy mama
It's a been a long road with a bumpy end. Our case was sent to USCIS in Nairobi, Kenya after being determined "not clearly approvable" by the US embassy on March 19th and I headed to Ethiopia on March 23rd. We cleared USCIS on the 30th and Dan arrived on April 3rd. By God's gracious intervention we got an exit interview on April 5th (even though they were booked until April 11th) and arrived home the 7th. I'm sure when all this beauty and grace has sunk in I will blog more about these crazy last few weeks. Right now we are loving life as a family of 5 and in awe of how God has worked all this together for His good. I'll keep you posted...because our story is really just beginning.
The girl love their little brother....a ton...
It's a been a long road with a bumpy end. Our case was sent to USCIS in Nairobi, Kenya after being determined "not clearly approvable" by the US embassy on March 19th and I headed to Ethiopia on March 23rd. We cleared USCIS on the 30th and Dan arrived on April 3rd. By God's gracious intervention we got an exit interview on April 5th (even though they were booked until April 11th) and arrived home the 7th. I'm sure when all this beauty and grace has sunk in I will blog more about these crazy last few weeks. Right now we are loving life as a family of 5 and in awe of how God has worked all this together for His good. I'll keep you posted...because our story is really just beginning.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Crossing the crazy line and the ocean....
Our case "is still under orphan investigation. At this time there is no new information about your case. We ask for your patience." according to the email we received from the embassy. After a week they finally responded with those few sentences and answered none of my questions. Questions like "Could you please specify what attempts you are making to contact the police officer?" "In your professional opinion is it likely our case will be clearly approvable?" "Do you have an estimated time frame of when a decision will be made regarding our case?" Thank you for your service to our country. I feel like this is similar to your loved one being in the hospital, very sick, and you asking the Doctor what the plan and prognosis is and the doctor responding, "We are still trying to figure out what's going on, please be patient." That would not fly. Because families want to know what the doctor is doing, what tests, what labs and what his professional outlook is on your loved one's life. That is their job! I feel like the embassy is not doing their job. And it crushes me.
So a week from today I'm leaving on a jet plane and heading back to Ethiopia to love on our little guy and go to the embassy and see if they will answer my questions in person. Worst case scenario: Nothing in our case changes and Noah gets lots of love and cuddles and is reminded that he has a mom and a dad who love him very much and who are fighting very hard to bring him home. Best case scenario: Our case gets moving and I bring Noah home with me that week! There are obviously lots of "middle" scenarios, one of which might include me staying in Ethiopia a little longer than planned if needed. Some might call this crazy. If that's the line we're crossing it when I cross the ocean. We are in a very weird place in a very complicated process. I'll admit, even as an adoptive parent, when we were in Ethiopia in December and other families were even more deep in this than we are now I. did. not. get. it. But now here we are and I. get. it.
Yesterday I had a date afternoon/evening with this really hot guy I know. Incase you just happened across my blog and don't know me I am talking about my husband :) We went for a 3 mile run, watched UofL basketball and ate sushi. It was perfection. The loop we went for a run on is very windy and has lots of trees and hills. So it is difficult to see what's ahead. I was on the very last and longest hill and turned a corner thinking the top would be in site and I would see Dan there waiting for me. Nope. I turned the bend to realize I was only about half way up this forever long climb. Oh my. I took a deep breath and pushed it. A police officer with his two dogs were running in the opposite direction of me and had already passed me once said "You can do it! Keep pushing!" I got a little pep in my step and just when I thought I was going to vomit or pass out or both I finally came around the curve I thought I was at 5 minutes before and saw the top. What a picture of this adoption process. Just when I thought we were almost there I get an email that knocks the breath out of me saying nothing has changed, no progress, no closer to getting Noah home. All I know to do is take a deep breath and push it. I'm so thankful for the encouragers in my life. Those sweet precious people who don't say "I'm praying for you" just because they think it's nice to say but those dear friends who are getting down on their knees on Noah's behalf and crying along side of us. Because dear friends you are giving me a little pep in my step, you're helping me put aside all the pain that this long climb is causing and to keep pushing it. So for the prayers, the hugs, the notes, the texts, thank you.
I am longing for the downhill run of this race. The part where my body weight alone propels me forward and it takes so much less effort. The part where we bring Noah home. Right now there are just trees and curves and steep hills. Hopefully we'll get there before I vomit, pass out, or both.
So a week from today I'm leaving on a jet plane and heading back to Ethiopia to love on our little guy and go to the embassy and see if they will answer my questions in person. Worst case scenario: Nothing in our case changes and Noah gets lots of love and cuddles and is reminded that he has a mom and a dad who love him very much and who are fighting very hard to bring him home. Best case scenario: Our case gets moving and I bring Noah home with me that week! There are obviously lots of "middle" scenarios, one of which might include me staying in Ethiopia a little longer than planned if needed. Some might call this crazy. If that's the line we're crossing it when I cross the ocean. We are in a very weird place in a very complicated process. I'll admit, even as an adoptive parent, when we were in Ethiopia in December and other families were even more deep in this than we are now I. did. not. get. it. But now here we are and I. get. it.
Yesterday I had a date afternoon/evening with this really hot guy I know. Incase you just happened across my blog and don't know me I am talking about my husband :) We went for a 3 mile run, watched UofL basketball and ate sushi. It was perfection. The loop we went for a run on is very windy and has lots of trees and hills. So it is difficult to see what's ahead. I was on the very last and longest hill and turned a corner thinking the top would be in site and I would see Dan there waiting for me. Nope. I turned the bend to realize I was only about half way up this forever long climb. Oh my. I took a deep breath and pushed it. A police officer with his two dogs were running in the opposite direction of me and had already passed me once said "You can do it! Keep pushing!" I got a little pep in my step and just when I thought I was going to vomit or pass out or both I finally came around the curve I thought I was at 5 minutes before and saw the top. What a picture of this adoption process. Just when I thought we were almost there I get an email that knocks the breath out of me saying nothing has changed, no progress, no closer to getting Noah home. All I know to do is take a deep breath and push it. I'm so thankful for the encouragers in my life. Those sweet precious people who don't say "I'm praying for you" just because they think it's nice to say but those dear friends who are getting down on their knees on Noah's behalf and crying along side of us. Because dear friends you are giving me a little pep in my step, you're helping me put aside all the pain that this long climb is causing and to keep pushing it. So for the prayers, the hugs, the notes, the texts, thank you.
I am longing for the downhill run of this race. The part where my body weight alone propels me forward and it takes so much less effort. The part where we bring Noah home. Right now there are just trees and curves and steep hills. Hopefully we'll get there before I vomit, pass out, or both.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Reality Check
So this is what I know. I know that a couple years ago there were some agencies in Ethiopia that weren't being super ethical. Because of this adoptions in Ethiopia were getting a lot of attention, not the good kind. The result is officials at the US embassy investigating cases more thoroughly and sending them on to the people at USCIS who have more authority when they are not satisfied with the results of the investigation. What I also know is that in some cases adoptive families have, rightfully so, been very frustrated with the way the embassy is going about this task. It doesn't take a genius to draw a very sad conclusion here. If logistics of adoption are slack it opens up big doors for child trafficking (despite adoptive families intentions of adopting a "true" orphan). If logistics of adoption are too tight it means children spending longer in orphanages or worse promises a life of institution or poverty for children who don't have enough paperwork to back up their status as orphan under US law. When I think of babies being caught up in either side of this my heart is broken.
What I also know though is that God's word is true and I can trust in His promises. This is not always easy, in fact at times in life it's very hard to do. Hebrews 11:1-3 says "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible." I have been earnestly and continually praying for God to work a miracle and bring my boy home in a crazy short amount of time. At times, it has been more of a cry than anything else, claiming truths in God's word and wondering why it wasn't working in my box of a time frame. Doesn't God know how much I want Noah to be home, doesn't He know that an orphanage is no place for a baby, doesn't He know that my life is on hold waiting for an email to get on a plane, doesn't He know that my good friend who is traveling with me is under the same hesitation to make any major commitment? Oh ridiculously selfish me! Of course He knows! Of course the God who spoke the world into existence knows all of these things. The question is what do I know? Do I know that God is faithful, do I know that He loves Noah more than I do, do I know that God left the throne and came down to earth as a baby and died a brutal death so that I might have hope in eternal life? Do I know that His word is true and I can claim it's promises? Of course I know these things. Over and over God has shown me that He is faithful, that He brings me through times when I can't carry my own weight, that His plan is far better than what I could work out for myself.
Yesterday, my sweet Bella Kate was very sick and she brought me a reality check. She hadn't kept anything solid down all day and asked me for a chocolate cookie and ice cream cone. I told her no I was making her homemade chicken noodle soup, didn't that sound good? Nope, she wanted a chocolate cookie and ice cream cone. But because I love her very much and did not want her to suffer the consequences of revisiting a chocolate cookie and ice cream cone, that would be far worse than the pleasure of eating them, I did not give in. She could have chicken noodle soup. I promised her when she was better she could have those things. She was skeptical and I got the vibe that she felt I was denying her a great pleasure. She had asked me early in the day, "Mommy, will you take good care of me today?" I of course told her yes, I would do everything I could to make her feel better. In her almost 4 year old way I wonder if she was reconsidering that answer. If I was going to take good care of her why wouldn't I give her what she wanted?!? Because, I, maker of the ice cream cone, could see something she couldn't see and I want what is best for her. I thought to myself, why doesn't she know that? Her whole life I have met her needs, given her things, loved her. Doesn't she know I wouldn't deny her anything if I didn't have a good reason? I almost laughed out loud. I am worse than a 4 year old when it comes to questioning God's plan, protection, and provision.
I know that God is capable of intervening in Addis Ababa and getting our case cleared and it wouldn't make the top 10 of God's greatest miracles. It would be nothing. I will keep asking Him to do so. But from life experience and from promises I hold in my heart I trust His plan. If you had told me 8 years ago that at my age I would be bringing home my 3rd child from Ethiopia and would be married for almost 6 years I would have laughed and called you crazy! Thankfully, God blessed me in spite of my attitude and in spite of my heart. The blessings are far greater than any plan I could conjure up on my own. Like I said, it's not always easy but that's okay. Easy isn't one of the promises I hold in my heart.
There is a lot more that I do not know, than what I do know. I do not know when Noah will come home, or why it is taking so long, what the embassy will do after this. But I will end with a quote that is true to what I do know from Elisabeth Elliot's book "Through Gates of Splendor". I just finished it and it's a great read if you are looking for something. She writes after her husband's death, "God is the God of human history, and He is at work continuously, mysteriously, accomplishing His eternal purposes in us, through us, for us, and in spite of us." Thankful for what He accomplishes in spite of me.
What I also know though is that God's word is true and I can trust in His promises. This is not always easy, in fact at times in life it's very hard to do. Hebrews 11:1-3 says "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible." I have been earnestly and continually praying for God to work a miracle and bring my boy home in a crazy short amount of time. At times, it has been more of a cry than anything else, claiming truths in God's word and wondering why it wasn't working in my box of a time frame. Doesn't God know how much I want Noah to be home, doesn't He know that an orphanage is no place for a baby, doesn't He know that my life is on hold waiting for an email to get on a plane, doesn't He know that my good friend who is traveling with me is under the same hesitation to make any major commitment? Oh ridiculously selfish me! Of course He knows! Of course the God who spoke the world into existence knows all of these things. The question is what do I know? Do I know that God is faithful, do I know that He loves Noah more than I do, do I know that God left the throne and came down to earth as a baby and died a brutal death so that I might have hope in eternal life? Do I know that His word is true and I can claim it's promises? Of course I know these things. Over and over God has shown me that He is faithful, that He brings me through times when I can't carry my own weight, that His plan is far better than what I could work out for myself.
Yesterday, my sweet Bella Kate was very sick and she brought me a reality check. She hadn't kept anything solid down all day and asked me for a chocolate cookie and ice cream cone. I told her no I was making her homemade chicken noodle soup, didn't that sound good? Nope, she wanted a chocolate cookie and ice cream cone. But because I love her very much and did not want her to suffer the consequences of revisiting a chocolate cookie and ice cream cone, that would be far worse than the pleasure of eating them, I did not give in. She could have chicken noodle soup. I promised her when she was better she could have those things. She was skeptical and I got the vibe that she felt I was denying her a great pleasure. She had asked me early in the day, "Mommy, will you take good care of me today?" I of course told her yes, I would do everything I could to make her feel better. In her almost 4 year old way I wonder if she was reconsidering that answer. If I was going to take good care of her why wouldn't I give her what she wanted?!? Because, I, maker of the ice cream cone, could see something she couldn't see and I want what is best for her. I thought to myself, why doesn't she know that? Her whole life I have met her needs, given her things, loved her. Doesn't she know I wouldn't deny her anything if I didn't have a good reason? I almost laughed out loud. I am worse than a 4 year old when it comes to questioning God's plan, protection, and provision.
I know that God is capable of intervening in Addis Ababa and getting our case cleared and it wouldn't make the top 10 of God's greatest miracles. It would be nothing. I will keep asking Him to do so. But from life experience and from promises I hold in my heart I trust His plan. If you had told me 8 years ago that at my age I would be bringing home my 3rd child from Ethiopia and would be married for almost 6 years I would have laughed and called you crazy! Thankfully, God blessed me in spite of my attitude and in spite of my heart. The blessings are far greater than any plan I could conjure up on my own. Like I said, it's not always easy but that's okay. Easy isn't one of the promises I hold in my heart.
There is a lot more that I do not know, than what I do know. I do not know when Noah will come home, or why it is taking so long, what the embassy will do after this. But I will end with a quote that is true to what I do know from Elisabeth Elliot's book "Through Gates of Splendor". I just finished it and it's a great read if you are looking for something. She writes after her husband's death, "God is the God of human history, and He is at work continuously, mysteriously, accomplishing His eternal purposes in us, through us, for us, and in spite of us." Thankful for what He accomplishes in spite of me.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Encouraged
Yep, after my pity party blog I wrote last time this one is about how encouraged I am. Do I still painstakingly miss my son? Yes. Do I still grieve over this time apart and continually pray that he will be to his forever home ASAP? Absolutely. But let me tell you why this grief and sadness, oddly enough give me a little bit of comfort and encouragement. It goes back to God's awesome Word and it was delivered to my ears by this great pastor I know. You should go to this link and listen to it and tell all your friends to listen to it as well. Be ready to be convicted and maybe, like me, a little encouraged.
www.fchope.com/resources/podcast Click the January 8, 2012-The Movement-Series No. 14
PS if you're reading this because you're in the adoption world you should listen to the one from January 15th too.
So one morning last week I was feeling particularly sad so I went to the gym. May sound weird but it works for me. While I was running I listened to Jon Akin preach from Acts 7 & 8 about Stephen preaching this great sermon and the people stoning him to death. You're already encouraged, I know :) I came away with a few truths.
1. I am not really suffering at this moment. Yes I am sad at times, justifiably so. But as I was listening to this I was literally running on a treadmill. If I was suffering I would not have been able to run on a treadmill. (The other truths are not quite so obvious!)
2. Jesus does not promise or encourage a comfortable life. Stephen was stoned to death because he was being obedient to what God had called him to do. While the Bible does tell us to care for orphans and we are adopting out of obedience to what God has called us to do, it does not say adopt and the process will go smoothly and you'll have no heartache in it. This has been an incredibly hard journey at times, and this is the hardest part of it all. But there is hope in the third truth.
3. The third point in the sermon was What if being like Jesus means God uses your suffering for good? While we've already concluded that I am not really suffering, if I were going to call it that there is something very good that is going to come from it. We are being blessed with a son. Noah is given a forever family. And if we go beyond that I'll share something with you that happens frequently in the Jenkins family. Frequently, Dan prays that God will use our children to take the Gospel to the nations. Often he prays that Noah will come to know Christ and take the gospel back to Ethiopia and see his birth nation inherit eternal life. If I'm being honest, sometimes I cringe at this prayer because I would love to grow old and have all my children and grandchildren over for dinner every Sunday. But that's not a biblical truth. I'm trying to be more eternally minded like my husband. So this hard time, this crazy journey will not only bring a son into a family, it could eventually bring about people hearing about Jesus for the first time.
4.This time apart from Noah will soon end. My sweet friend (who is this pastor's wife) told me a day or two before I listened to this sermon that next Christmas will be here before we know it and we'll look back at this time as a quick blur. This time that I long for my son to be home is nothing compared to what we hope is an eternal impact on one little boy and all the people that he shares that with.
I'm not trying to compare my "suffering" with Stephen's suffering. I'm convicted about wanting to be more like Jesus. But my encouragement came in that adoption is not just about now. Raising kids in general is not just about getting them to 18 and hoping the best. It's about having an eternal impact on them. I'm encouraged that this time will soon pass and Noah will be home. I'm so thankful for the sweet Akin family and how they are such an encouragement to us and speak truth into our lives.
www.fchope.com/resources/podcast Click the January 8, 2012-The Movement-Series No. 14
PS if you're reading this because you're in the adoption world you should listen to the one from January 15th too.
So one morning last week I was feeling particularly sad so I went to the gym. May sound weird but it works for me. While I was running I listened to Jon Akin preach from Acts 7 & 8 about Stephen preaching this great sermon and the people stoning him to death. You're already encouraged, I know :) I came away with a few truths.
1. I am not really suffering at this moment. Yes I am sad at times, justifiably so. But as I was listening to this I was literally running on a treadmill. If I was suffering I would not have been able to run on a treadmill. (The other truths are not quite so obvious!)
2. Jesus does not promise or encourage a comfortable life. Stephen was stoned to death because he was being obedient to what God had called him to do. While the Bible does tell us to care for orphans and we are adopting out of obedience to what God has called us to do, it does not say adopt and the process will go smoothly and you'll have no heartache in it. This has been an incredibly hard journey at times, and this is the hardest part of it all. But there is hope in the third truth.
3. The third point in the sermon was What if being like Jesus means God uses your suffering for good? While we've already concluded that I am not really suffering, if I were going to call it that there is something very good that is going to come from it. We are being blessed with a son. Noah is given a forever family. And if we go beyond that I'll share something with you that happens frequently in the Jenkins family. Frequently, Dan prays that God will use our children to take the Gospel to the nations. Often he prays that Noah will come to know Christ and take the gospel back to Ethiopia and see his birth nation inherit eternal life. If I'm being honest, sometimes I cringe at this prayer because I would love to grow old and have all my children and grandchildren over for dinner every Sunday. But that's not a biblical truth. I'm trying to be more eternally minded like my husband. So this hard time, this crazy journey will not only bring a son into a family, it could eventually bring about people hearing about Jesus for the first time.
4.This time apart from Noah will soon end. My sweet friend (who is this pastor's wife) told me a day or two before I listened to this sermon that next Christmas will be here before we know it and we'll look back at this time as a quick blur. This time that I long for my son to be home is nothing compared to what we hope is an eternal impact on one little boy and all the people that he shares that with.
I'm not trying to compare my "suffering" with Stephen's suffering. I'm convicted about wanting to be more like Jesus. But my encouragement came in that adoption is not just about now. Raising kids in general is not just about getting them to 18 and hoping the best. It's about having an eternal impact on them. I'm encouraged that this time will soon pass and Noah will be home. I'm so thankful for the sweet Akin family and how they are such an encouragement to us and speak truth into our lives.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Court and Life After
December 22, 2011 will forever be a celebratory day in the Jenkins family. I was up so early that day with nervousness and excitement. I prayed Deuteronomy 10:17 & 18 for Noah, "For the Lord your God is the God of gods, and Lord of lords, the great, mighty, and awesome God, showing no partiality and taking no bribe. He executes justice for the fatherless and widow, and loves the foreigner, giving him food and clothing." I appealed to God's sovereignty and begged Him to give Noah justice that day as a fatherless child. God heard my prayer and that day around 10am Noah was no longer an orphan but a very loved son.
I have never been in a court room in the US and the only images in my mind are the ones on TV. This courthouse was nothing special. You could easily drive by it and not notice it. Up on the third floor we waited in a room lined with chairs with 50 other people. I wondered if any of the young women were there to relinquish rights to their child, I was heartbroken for them. We didn't wait long and soon all four families there with our agency were taken into a smaller room lined with chairs where we all sat down. A beautiful Ethiopian woman sat behind a very ordinary desk. The judge's "court room" was simple and sort of run down. She called out the names of our children. She asked all of us simple questions and we answered in unison. She explained how important it was that we know that this is irreversible and permanent (Praise the Lord!). She also encouraged us to teach our children about Ethiopia. Then she said, "All your paperwork is in place, congratulations, they are yours." And we all left the room. I was in awe of God who looked over every piece of paperwork and every hand that touched our case. It was final, he is our son! Here's a few pictures of us on court day.
We spent the next day loving on our sweet guy and preparing to head back to the states. I knew what lay ahead but my heart was broken. Betty had told me at lunch that she could see I was sad. I fed Noah and rocked him to sleep that night. I had to go get ready for the airport and I was so overwhelmed I gave Noah to Dan and went to our room. I simply could not hand him back to his nanny. Moms can you imagine?? Can you imagine handing your 3 day old back to the doctor until your birth certificate or social security number came through?? It was the hardest thing I've ever done. (Y'all give my husband some sympathy for putting up with me on the plane ride home.) And lets be real. If we had the funds and I could convince my husband I would get on a plane tonight, leave the girls in the care of their dad and gran, and stay there until he could come home.
The only word that can even come close to how I feel is grief. I don't know if I have ever really grieved over anything before, but I am over this time apart from my son. I realize he doesn't know any better, but I do. I'm grieved over very painful parts of his past that one day I'll have to tell him. Putting all his sweet things away fills me with such sadness that he is so far from me and in an orphanage I feel paralyzed. The transition house is incredible. The nannies love those babies and the director's wife checks on them every day. But my son is in an orphanage. His paper work is in the process of being changed over to our last name and his passport is being made with our name and he is being medically cleared by the US, again. So we are waiting. And once again I am praying the same prayer that I did the morning of court. That the God of gods and Lord of lords, the great, mighty, and awesome God, who is bigger than the US embassy, would bring about a miracle and get my Noah home in an amount of time that could only be the result of God bringing justice to the fatherless. He is capable and I am asking.
I would like to tell you that I came across a verse or a person said something so inspirational to me that I can carry on joyfully and trusting in the Lord's perfect timing to bring Noah home. But it isn't true. It's not that I haven't looked or haven't listened. I read about Hannah and how she had the son she had prayed for and gave him over to the Lord. I read about the lost son whose father rejoiced when he returned home (Let me tell you, there will be a celebration when Noah comes home!). I listen to people tell me he'll be home soon, and he's so little he doesn't know. It's all true. But my heart still aches. And it isn't that I don't trust God's timing. I thought about God adopting me and making me His daughter. That He sacrificed so much more than I am sacrificing to be Noah's mom. He let Jesus die for me. Nothing compares to that. I wonder if God feels this way when we become His children and just stay where we were and like we were before we became His children. If we are content to stay in an orphanage like setting because all of our basic needs are met because we are too scared to be obedient and go do what God, who loves His children, has called us to do. I wonder if He is grieved at all the blessings we are missing. I'm grieved at all Noah is missing, every day he is missing love from his mom and dad and sisters. He's missing what it means to be in a family. I'm grieved over all I'm missing, his smiles and giggles every day, how he's growing. The difference is Noah can't decide for himself. He's where he is because of logistics of government. But probably if we could explain it to him, he might resist. Hey little guy would you like to be handed over to strangers who don't look anything like you, get in steel box for 17 hours, and go live far away where you don't understand what anyone is saying? He might rather stay were he is comfortable and where he thinks all his needs are being met. But we know we have something far greater to offer him and can't wait to bring him home. Noah doesn't have the option like we do or like the lost son in Luke did. I just wonder how much I'm missing out on by thinking all my needs are being met, I must be just where God has me to be. When God has so much more if we are willing to follow Him, to go far away from home, from what we know and love and find comfort in. Oh the blessings that must be in store. So maybe I lack faith in trusting God's timing or maybe I love Noah like I'm supposed to love my son and can't wait to celebrate his homecoming.
I mean check him out...can you blame me??
This is him in his Christmas pajamas holding a picture of his sisters. Can't wait for all of them to be together. As Bella Kate almost daily says, "Noah will be so happy to see me!"
I have never been in a court room in the US and the only images in my mind are the ones on TV. This courthouse was nothing special. You could easily drive by it and not notice it. Up on the third floor we waited in a room lined with chairs with 50 other people. I wondered if any of the young women were there to relinquish rights to their child, I was heartbroken for them. We didn't wait long and soon all four families there with our agency were taken into a smaller room lined with chairs where we all sat down. A beautiful Ethiopian woman sat behind a very ordinary desk. The judge's "court room" was simple and sort of run down. She called out the names of our children. She asked all of us simple questions and we answered in unison. She explained how important it was that we know that this is irreversible and permanent (Praise the Lord!). She also encouraged us to teach our children about Ethiopia. Then she said, "All your paperwork is in place, congratulations, they are yours." And we all left the room. I was in awe of God who looked over every piece of paperwork and every hand that touched our case. It was final, he is our son! Here's a few pictures of us on court day.
We spent the next day loving on our sweet guy and preparing to head back to the states. I knew what lay ahead but my heart was broken. Betty had told me at lunch that she could see I was sad. I fed Noah and rocked him to sleep that night. I had to go get ready for the airport and I was so overwhelmed I gave Noah to Dan and went to our room. I simply could not hand him back to his nanny. Moms can you imagine?? Can you imagine handing your 3 day old back to the doctor until your birth certificate or social security number came through?? It was the hardest thing I've ever done. (Y'all give my husband some sympathy for putting up with me on the plane ride home.) And lets be real. If we had the funds and I could convince my husband I would get on a plane tonight, leave the girls in the care of their dad and gran, and stay there until he could come home.
The only word that can even come close to how I feel is grief. I don't know if I have ever really grieved over anything before, but I am over this time apart from my son. I realize he doesn't know any better, but I do. I'm grieved over very painful parts of his past that one day I'll have to tell him. Putting all his sweet things away fills me with such sadness that he is so far from me and in an orphanage I feel paralyzed. The transition house is incredible. The nannies love those babies and the director's wife checks on them every day. But my son is in an orphanage. His paper work is in the process of being changed over to our last name and his passport is being made with our name and he is being medically cleared by the US, again. So we are waiting. And once again I am praying the same prayer that I did the morning of court. That the God of gods and Lord of lords, the great, mighty, and awesome God, who is bigger than the US embassy, would bring about a miracle and get my Noah home in an amount of time that could only be the result of God bringing justice to the fatherless. He is capable and I am asking.
I would like to tell you that I came across a verse or a person said something so inspirational to me that I can carry on joyfully and trusting in the Lord's perfect timing to bring Noah home. But it isn't true. It's not that I haven't looked or haven't listened. I read about Hannah and how she had the son she had prayed for and gave him over to the Lord. I read about the lost son whose father rejoiced when he returned home (Let me tell you, there will be a celebration when Noah comes home!). I listen to people tell me he'll be home soon, and he's so little he doesn't know. It's all true. But my heart still aches. And it isn't that I don't trust God's timing. I thought about God adopting me and making me His daughter. That He sacrificed so much more than I am sacrificing to be Noah's mom. He let Jesus die for me. Nothing compares to that. I wonder if God feels this way when we become His children and just stay where we were and like we were before we became His children. If we are content to stay in an orphanage like setting because all of our basic needs are met because we are too scared to be obedient and go do what God, who loves His children, has called us to do. I wonder if He is grieved at all the blessings we are missing. I'm grieved at all Noah is missing, every day he is missing love from his mom and dad and sisters. He's missing what it means to be in a family. I'm grieved over all I'm missing, his smiles and giggles every day, how he's growing. The difference is Noah can't decide for himself. He's where he is because of logistics of government. But probably if we could explain it to him, he might resist. Hey little guy would you like to be handed over to strangers who don't look anything like you, get in steel box for 17 hours, and go live far away where you don't understand what anyone is saying? He might rather stay were he is comfortable and where he thinks all his needs are being met. But we know we have something far greater to offer him and can't wait to bring him home. Noah doesn't have the option like we do or like the lost son in Luke did. I just wonder how much I'm missing out on by thinking all my needs are being met, I must be just where God has me to be. When God has so much more if we are willing to follow Him, to go far away from home, from what we know and love and find comfort in. Oh the blessings that must be in store. So maybe I lack faith in trusting God's timing or maybe I love Noah like I'm supposed to love my son and can't wait to celebrate his homecoming.
I mean check him out...can you blame me??
This is him in his Christmas pajamas holding a picture of his sisters. Can't wait for all of them to be together. As Bella Kate almost daily says, "Noah will be so happy to see me!"
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Meetcha Day!
It's been a while. Since we returned home on Christmas Eve things have been crazy! We celebrated the birth of our Savior and tried to figure out what time it was. We visited family out of town and had some sickness. Now life is starting to get back into a groove. It's important that I write about our trip, where our adoption is and how I'm feeling about it. It's important for Noah one day and I hope to be an encouragement to other adoptive families, as well as paint a realistic picture. The times I have picked up the computer to write I haven't found the words. But I'm going to give it a try.
It only took an hour for me to get spit up on (it was a little more extreme but I'll save you the details) so I took the opportunity to put him in a "boy" shirt.
This one melts my heart...wish I was there right now.
We landed in beautiful Ethiopia on Tuesday, December 20th about 8am. The bright African sun and warm breeze were so welcome after the very long flight. Standing in line to get our visa was an appropriate depiction of African time and culture. There were two men sitting at a table hand writing visas for the 100 plus people in line. They were not in hurry. They were not being lazy either. They had their work in front of them and took a pace that we might consider slow and went about what they had to do. I love Africa and I love the people. We laughed as we watched the man write out my visa and pause to chat with the other man then continue writing. We finally got through the line and headed to get our luggage. We made our way out and standing in front of the many people waiting was Woudneh, our in country director. What a welcome site! He got us to the car where our driver took us to the transition house. We pulled in the gate and I saw a beautiful little garden that welcomed us into the guest house. I was yards away from our son. All I wanted to do was go and squeeze him. But because Ethiopians are so hospitable we had to eat first. A very delicious breakfast was served of eggs and homemade bread. Then sweet Betty (Woudneh's wife) came in and I told her we were waiting to meet Noah. She said, "Oh, I will go get him." I could have kissed her! So we waited...a little excitedly!
And I know we look awesome...please remember that we just got off an almost 13 hour flight and it was about 2 am our time! And No we did not realize that we both had on red until we looked at the pictures :)
Then I saw him, reached for him, and he smiled! My breath was taken away and I was in love.
Our precious son, a gift from God was finally in my arms. He is beautiful and perfect. He smiled and laughed and played with my hair. I gave him lots of kisses and squeezes. Mostly I just stared. Because for 10 months we have been praying for this sweet boy, praying for his birth mom and his journey to get home to us. At that time he was still in the womb. Now he was in my arms and I could not have been more elated.
I do realize he has on pink, I promise he is a boy! They don't really have gender identity like we do with color and it's an orphanage....you have to use what you have.
After I caught my breath and thanked God for blessing us with this sweet boy I let Dan hold him a little :)
We spent the day loving on Noah, feeding him, rocking him to sleep. It was perfection.
It only took an hour for me to get spit up on (it was a little more extreme but I'll save you the details) so I took the opportunity to put him in a "boy" shirt.
This one melts my heart...wish I was there right now.
After Noah went back to the nanny for the night Woudneh and Betty took all the families to a traditional Ethiopian dinner. The food was AMAZING and the entertainment was great. It's probably a good thing there was singing and dancing because Dan and I were about fall face forward asleep. Here's a picture of us at dinner.
It was one of the most beautiful perfect days in my life. I had anticipated it for months and holding him for the first time brought on emotions that have no words. Just like when the doctor handed me our girls. It was love. Hopefully I'll get to write more about the rest of our trip and court date soon! Please keep praying that Noah will be in my arms forever very soon.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Time Flies When You're Having Fun!
Hang through this friends....it's going somewhere. Last night Bella Kate (who is 3) and I were playing on the deck waiting for Dan to get home. She got in her Little Tikes Coupe and said, "I'm going to school Mom, see ya later!" I laughed as she "locked" her door and put on her imaginary seat belt. "Tell me to be careful!" She cried like I was totally neglecting my motherly duties. I told her to be careful and have fun. Off she went to the other end of the deck. She got out and "played at school" for a few minutes then hopped back in and Flinstoned it back to me. "I'm home!" (I hope she is always this enthusiastic to get home) "How was school?" I asked her. "Oh, it was fine." with this very grown up voice. Suddenly, flashing before my eyes was a 16 year old girl pulling into the drive way, telling me school was fine that day. Ugh. While I have hopes and dreams for my kids to grow up to be independent, go to college, get married, and have a family of their own, the reality of how quickly that will actually happen sometimes becomes very clear. She will not be under our authority for that long. I need to be busy and purposeful with the time I have to guide her and teach her.
It seems that not that long ago every event that I longed for took fooorrreeevvverrrrr to get here. I didn't get it when grown ups said, "When you're older, time flies." And while I believe the Bible is true and accurate I didn't get it in James when it says "...you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.." Really? 70 years seems like a really really long time when I just can't wait for (insert Christmas, graduation, wedding, baby, etc). But in the grand scheme of thousands of years of history on Earth and then go ahead and throw in eternity, 70 years is truly a mist. While I do need to stay on it for the 20ish years I have to train up my kiddos, what about staying purposeful for my God?
I told you you're going to have to stick with me. This is supposed to be about adoption, right? Adopting internationally has brought on a lot more criticism, from strangers and family, both directly and indirectly, than I expected it to. Recently said of me, "She doesn't know what she's getting herself into." and how "You're not doing your girls any favors." At first, comments like this would make my skin want to melt off from the blood boiling underneath. But now I'm just letting them know they need to take it up with God, because their problem is really with His command and His word, not with me. The one that makes me laugh the most is, "You really want more kids after this? I mean in this economy that's (insert ridiculous, crazy, brave(but not in a good way))." They usually follow up with, "yeah, we might do that someday." Now before I go on, there is a time to do things, and I'm not discounting that, 2 years ago would not have been the time for us to adopt. BUT why are we waiting? We are adopting for a lot of reasons, but at the core of it is Jesus changed our lives by adopting us and God's word says to care for orphans. We have 70 years (give or take on average) to do what God has commanded us to do. I don't just mean adoption. I don't think adopting is a command, but caring for orphans is. There are lots of ways to do that. But either we believe what the Bible says or we don't. We make the dangerous assumption (especially in the part of the country that I live in) that just because you recognize that Jesus is the Son of God you assume that you have a relationship with Him and are forgiven. Even demons in the New Testament would call Jesus out on who He is, and they were afraid because the knew the authority He had. They recognized who He is, but they certainly will not spend eternity with Him in heaven. So we believe in God? James says even demons believe in God and shudder. It takes us recognizing that we are separated from God, we have messed up, and need to not only recognize who Jesus is and what He did for us on the cross but recognize we need forgiveness and get that by grace through faith. Then if that's true for us we need to get busy. There will never be a perfect time to share the gospel, adopt an orphan, go on a mission trip, live overseas. Satan will always provide you an excuse. But if we believe what the Bible says, our life has changed because of Jesus Christ. If our life has really changed, don't we want others lives to change too? There are places so desperate for the gospel. They can't wait until we are retired and our kids are in college to hear. A couple generations will be gone by then.
When I was in Ghana working at a hospital I was overwhelmed by physical death. Babies, kids, young adults, every day dying. It took me months of being home to shake some of the the things I had seen. But I'm surrounded by spiritual death constantly and I don't blink an eye. So while my time is flying, what am I going to do with it? Because soon I'll vanish.
Thanks for hanging through this my bloggy friends. This isn't for you, it's for me. Now I need to get off here and get busy!
It seems that not that long ago every event that I longed for took fooorrreeevvverrrrr to get here. I didn't get it when grown ups said, "When you're older, time flies." And while I believe the Bible is true and accurate I didn't get it in James when it says "...you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.." Really? 70 years seems like a really really long time when I just can't wait for (insert Christmas, graduation, wedding, baby, etc). But in the grand scheme of thousands of years of history on Earth and then go ahead and throw in eternity, 70 years is truly a mist. While I do need to stay on it for the 20ish years I have to train up my kiddos, what about staying purposeful for my God?
I told you you're going to have to stick with me. This is supposed to be about adoption, right? Adopting internationally has brought on a lot more criticism, from strangers and family, both directly and indirectly, than I expected it to. Recently said of me, "She doesn't know what she's getting herself into." and how "You're not doing your girls any favors." At first, comments like this would make my skin want to melt off from the blood boiling underneath. But now I'm just letting them know they need to take it up with God, because their problem is really with His command and His word, not with me. The one that makes me laugh the most is, "You really want more kids after this? I mean in this economy that's (insert ridiculous, crazy, brave(but not in a good way))." They usually follow up with, "yeah, we might do that someday." Now before I go on, there is a time to do things, and I'm not discounting that, 2 years ago would not have been the time for us to adopt. BUT why are we waiting? We are adopting for a lot of reasons, but at the core of it is Jesus changed our lives by adopting us and God's word says to care for orphans. We have 70 years (give or take on average) to do what God has commanded us to do. I don't just mean adoption. I don't think adopting is a command, but caring for orphans is. There are lots of ways to do that. But either we believe what the Bible says or we don't. We make the dangerous assumption (especially in the part of the country that I live in) that just because you recognize that Jesus is the Son of God you assume that you have a relationship with Him and are forgiven. Even demons in the New Testament would call Jesus out on who He is, and they were afraid because the knew the authority He had. They recognized who He is, but they certainly will not spend eternity with Him in heaven. So we believe in God? James says even demons believe in God and shudder. It takes us recognizing that we are separated from God, we have messed up, and need to not only recognize who Jesus is and what He did for us on the cross but recognize we need forgiveness and get that by grace through faith. Then if that's true for us we need to get busy. There will never be a perfect time to share the gospel, adopt an orphan, go on a mission trip, live overseas. Satan will always provide you an excuse. But if we believe what the Bible says, our life has changed because of Jesus Christ. If our life has really changed, don't we want others lives to change too? There are places so desperate for the gospel. They can't wait until we are retired and our kids are in college to hear. A couple generations will be gone by then.
When I was in Ghana working at a hospital I was overwhelmed by physical death. Babies, kids, young adults, every day dying. It took me months of being home to shake some of the the things I had seen. But I'm surrounded by spiritual death constantly and I don't blink an eye. So while my time is flying, what am I going to do with it? Because soon I'll vanish.
Thanks for hanging through this my bloggy friends. This isn't for you, it's for me. Now I need to get off here and get busy!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Ladies & Gentleman, We Have A COURT DATE!!!
Can you feel the enthusiasm of my title?!??! Three weeks ago I saw his precious face for the first time and in 5 weeks and 5 days I get to hold him in my arms. My heart is overflowing with joy! You all who read my last post know I was praying to see my son this year and I asked you to pray for the same. I'm so thankful that God has answered this prayer.
Our court date is December 22nd!!! WAAHOOO!!
While this is what I was praying for, it wasn't super realistic of me. To be assigned a court date as fast as we did and have one assigned just over a month from now is a blessing from the Lord, I will give Him the glory for the most wonderful Christmas present a mom could ask for!
So today I've been a busy bee. We are working on our travel itinerary with an agency, I made our appointments at the travel clinic for vaccines, looked into travel insurance, made a list of documents we needed, and reviewed our travel pack from West Sands. I also realized this afternoon that since we will be getting home on Christmas Eve, I not only have 5 weeks to get everything in order for us to leave the country for the week, I only have 5 weeks to get everything ready for Christmas! Although, there is potential the Jenkins may be celebrating Christmas on December 26th so mom and dad will actually be awake and able to remember it! So if I lose my train of thought while talking to you it's because I'm mentally crossing off and adding to my to-do list (or just day dreaming about holding my little man :)
What happens now...(I'll be so happy when the only thing left to happen is be a forever family!)
December 12th: Preliminary hearing in Ethiopia. They review our paper work and little man's paper work. We get travel clearance or request correction to documents. (We are praying for clearance!!)
December 18th: Fly to D.C.
December 19th: Fly to Ethiopia
December 20th: Hold on to and cuddle our little guy!!! Happy Day!
December 22nd: Court!!
December 23rd: Leave Ethiopia
December 24th: Home to our girls
Noah has still has not been moved to the transition home. So at some point between now and December 20th he will be moved. Please pray for him to get there soon and safely. I'll be one relieved mama when he gets there.
Please pray that our MOWA (they write a supportive letter to the judge that we are clear to adopt Noah, without that letter our case cannot be final) letter is there and that when we leave Ethiopia Noah is our son. The longer the letter takes, the longer it will be until he is home.
Obviously flying in December has weather risks. We are asking the Lord to hold off a white Christmas until Christmas day :)
So thankful and excited to bring Noah home! So thankful for our friends and family who have been so encouraging and supportive! We love you all and can't express our gratitude. Please keep praying for our little guy. That he stays safe and healthy. That someone is loving on him today, that he is well fed, and clean. We can't wait for you to meet him!
My turn of "what I'm thankful for" at Thanksgiving might take a while :)
Our court date is December 22nd!!! WAAHOOO!!
While this is what I was praying for, it wasn't super realistic of me. To be assigned a court date as fast as we did and have one assigned just over a month from now is a blessing from the Lord, I will give Him the glory for the most wonderful Christmas present a mom could ask for!
So today I've been a busy bee. We are working on our travel itinerary with an agency, I made our appointments at the travel clinic for vaccines, looked into travel insurance, made a list of documents we needed, and reviewed our travel pack from West Sands. I also realized this afternoon that since we will be getting home on Christmas Eve, I not only have 5 weeks to get everything in order for us to leave the country for the week, I only have 5 weeks to get everything ready for Christmas! Although, there is potential the Jenkins may be celebrating Christmas on December 26th so mom and dad will actually be awake and able to remember it! So if I lose my train of thought while talking to you it's because I'm mentally crossing off and adding to my to-do list (or just day dreaming about holding my little man :)
What happens now...(I'll be so happy when the only thing left to happen is be a forever family!)
December 12th: Preliminary hearing in Ethiopia. They review our paper work and little man's paper work. We get travel clearance or request correction to documents. (We are praying for clearance!!)
December 18th: Fly to D.C.
December 19th: Fly to Ethiopia
December 20th: Hold on to and cuddle our little guy!!! Happy Day!
December 22nd: Court!!
December 23rd: Leave Ethiopia
December 24th: Home to our girls
Noah has still has not been moved to the transition home. So at some point between now and December 20th he will be moved. Please pray for him to get there soon and safely. I'll be one relieved mama when he gets there.
Please pray that our MOWA (they write a supportive letter to the judge that we are clear to adopt Noah, without that letter our case cannot be final) letter is there and that when we leave Ethiopia Noah is our son. The longer the letter takes, the longer it will be until he is home.
Obviously flying in December has weather risks. We are asking the Lord to hold off a white Christmas until Christmas day :)
So thankful and excited to bring Noah home! So thankful for our friends and family who have been so encouraging and supportive! We love you all and can't express our gratitude. Please keep praying for our little guy. That he stays safe and healthy. That someone is loving on him today, that he is well fed, and clean. We can't wait for you to meet him!
My turn of "what I'm thankful for" at Thanksgiving might take a while :)
Monday, October 24, 2011
We Have a Son!!
We are sooo thrilled to have received the referral for our son!! We set out on this journey expecting to go from a family of 4 to a family of 6 overnight. While we still plan on “making it 2 less orphans & 2 more Jenkins” it looks like we are going to do it one at a time. Changes at the US Ethiopia
Thursday Dan was at work and I was teaching a nursing clinical at a downtown hospital. I walked to the local farmers market in the cold to get a yummy lunch and was trying to find a quiet place to eat when I checked my phone only to find a missed call from our agency. Last Wednesday marked our dossier being in country 6 months, the day had passed with a little disappointment that we still had no referral. So of course I called our coordinator back immediately. We discussed a few things and she said, “Well I have a little boy who needs a home.” “Well, we want to give him one!" I told Lesley I’d go plug my computer in and call her right back. I found a tiny room in the back of the medical library and plugged my computer in (it took forever to come on and load my email!!). I called Dan and caught him up to speed and we conference called Lesley (Yay for iphones). By this time Dan’s email was already up and I could hear his enthusiasm as he went on about how cute our little boy is. My email FINALLY loaded and I got my first look at our little guy. He’s currently about 4 months old and in an orphanage about 8 hours from the capital. We went over some things about his short little life and excitedly accepted the referral.
This day has long been anticipated and I had imagined how I would feel in those moments. The happiness, anticipation, and gratefulness to our God, an amazing provider, was overwhelming. He is so precious. He has curly hair, chubby cheeks, and lips that kind of look like our oldest daughter’s. We can’t publicly post pictures of him until he’s legally ours, but if I see you I’ll have his picture out before you can ask! We have also decided what his name will be. Officially, his first name will be Noah, which means rest/comfort. We are praying those things for him while he is still so far from home.
When we got home Thursday we showed the girls his picture. Bella Kate said “He’s so cute! Where’s his mommy and daddy?” I explained to her that I am his mommy and Dan is his daddy. She looked at me like I was crazy! But now when she walks past his picture on the fridge she is very excited to announce, “That’s my brother, baby Noah!” Claire also learned how to say “brother” and I love that she is now a big sister! We were not anticipating an infant. We were really expecting a toddler. But I know C is going to make a great big sister!
So what now? We got our contract notarized Friday and mailed to our agency. We contacted Show Hope and Lifesong, who have graciously partnered with us financially, to let them know to send funds to our agency. Now we wait. Again. We should be “filed” this week, meaning our paperwork gets together with little guy’s paperwork and we wait for a court date. Two to four weeks after we are filed we should be assigned a court date. Then we will travel to Ethiopia US Ethiopia
I thought I would let you know what we are praying for our sweet Noah so you can join us in praying for him too!
First, he has to make the 8 hour journey to the transition house where he will stay until we bring him home. This 8 hour journey is not like a ride on the interstate. The roads are poor (as in dirt). There are no car seats or airbags. So please pray that he gets moved soon and gets there safely.
Second, we are praying for a speedy court date! We want our little guy home ASAP. Specifically, we are praying to pass court this year. So not only would that mean going to court but that MOWA would have our approval letter in our file on our court date. Without that letter, our case is not final.
Thanks for your prayers and encouragement. We can’t wait for you to meet our son!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Words that put me on the Defense.
We had a yard sale a couple weeks ago to raise money for the adoption. A big shout out to those who donated stuff for us to sell! You made the fundraiser a success!! So just like last time we advertised that we were hosting this as a fundraiser for our adoption. One because we like to talk about adoption and once you meet someone who have adopted it doesn't seem like an impossible thing to do. Second people tend to be more generous if they know it's to raise money, so they might actually pay the 50 cents marked on an item instead of asking if I'll take a quarter for it.
I had some encouraging conversations and we were making sales when a couple of ladies came over to purchase their items. The first question is "Well why aren't you adopting from America??" in a very condescending tone. I smiled and politely explained to her exactly why (you can see my post Why Ethiopia? for the full explanation). There is potential that I had a little tone of my own when telling her what happens to most orphans when they "age out" of the orphanage in most countries. I don't think she caught it though because her next question was, "Won't they be black?" This one actually took me off guard, looking back I wish I had been more witty but it surprised me so much that all I could say was "Yes mam they will be." "You all must really love kids!" she said a little disgusted sounding. By this point my heart was much more sad than I could muster up anger. I told her we do in fact love children and that we think all children are a blessing from the Lord. "God loves children" I told her and we want to be after God's own heart. It's words like that that make me stand up tall like the mama bear protecting her young....I think I might have actually been standing on my tip toes and stretching out my neck as I answered her. I'm on the defense. It's funny because they aren't even home yet!
The next night I had the sweet privilege of going on a date with my husband to celebrate his birthday. We always joke when we're out what we'll look like at a restaurant as a family of 6, the looks we'll get, and maybe the comments. I tend to think, surely people won't say ugly things in front of my kids. But people continue to surprise me. So I wonder how many times I'll have to take my kids out in public for me to get down off my tip toes. Because even without knowing what their faces look like I am defending them. I will fiercely do so to anyone who questions their worth. It's a precious thing to pray for them, to ask the God who knit together my girls in my womb to protect my children that He knit together so far away. Even though the womb that gave birth to them won't be called "mom" she is a precious lady who loved her kids enough to give them life. I'm so thankful for her and to our incredible God who has allowed me to be called "mommy".
I had some encouraging conversations and we were making sales when a couple of ladies came over to purchase their items. The first question is "Well why aren't you adopting from America??" in a very condescending tone. I smiled and politely explained to her exactly why (you can see my post Why Ethiopia? for the full explanation). There is potential that I had a little tone of my own when telling her what happens to most orphans when they "age out" of the orphanage in most countries. I don't think she caught it though because her next question was, "Won't they be black?" This one actually took me off guard, looking back I wish I had been more witty but it surprised me so much that all I could say was "Yes mam they will be." "You all must really love kids!" she said a little disgusted sounding. By this point my heart was much more sad than I could muster up anger. I told her we do in fact love children and that we think all children are a blessing from the Lord. "God loves children" I told her and we want to be after God's own heart. It's words like that that make me stand up tall like the mama bear protecting her young....I think I might have actually been standing on my tip toes and stretching out my neck as I answered her. I'm on the defense. It's funny because they aren't even home yet!
The next night I had the sweet privilege of going on a date with my husband to celebrate his birthday. We always joke when we're out what we'll look like at a restaurant as a family of 6, the looks we'll get, and maybe the comments. I tend to think, surely people won't say ugly things in front of my kids. But people continue to surprise me. So I wonder how many times I'll have to take my kids out in public for me to get down off my tip toes. Because even without knowing what their faces look like I am defending them. I will fiercely do so to anyone who questions their worth. It's a precious thing to pray for them, to ask the God who knit together my girls in my womb to protect my children that He knit together so far away. Even though the womb that gave birth to them won't be called "mom" she is a precious lady who loved her kids enough to give them life. I'm so thankful for her and to our incredible God who has allowed me to be called "mommy".
Friday, July 22, 2011
We are a Show Hope Family!
God's faithfulness continues to amaze us! We received a letter this week notifying us that Show Hope has awarded us with a $4,000 grant! We are so humbled and grateful. We are very close to having all the funds to pay for not only our referral fee but for our travel expenses as well. Saying "Thank you" seems so small and insignificant but we are so thankful to Show Hope, Lifesong, and our friends and family who have given to help bring our kids home! It literally could not have happened otherwise. We cannot wait to introduce you to our kids!
My heart aches for my kids that I don't know yet. I pray that they know they are loved already and will soon be home with their forever family. Claire fell down today and immediately cried "Mommy!" and I was there to pick her up and comfort her. At times like that I can't help but wonder who is comforting my kids in Ethiopia, who do they cry for? Or do they not cry at all because no one is there? Please pray with me that they will get home soon. And pray for the families that are considering adoption...that they would step out in faith and be so blessed with a child.
Thank you Show Hope and Show Hope Sponsors!! You've helped change our lives and the lives of 2 soon to be ex-orphans! An anonymous donor is currently pledging $1 for every new "like" on Show Hope's Facebook page up to $25,000. So to help other families like us get on your FB and like Show Hope!!
My heart aches for my kids that I don't know yet. I pray that they know they are loved already and will soon be home with their forever family. Claire fell down today and immediately cried "Mommy!" and I was there to pick her up and comfort her. At times like that I can't help but wonder who is comforting my kids in Ethiopia, who do they cry for? Or do they not cry at all because no one is there? Please pray with me that they will get home soon. And pray for the families that are considering adoption...that they would step out in faith and be so blessed with a child.
Thank you Show Hope and Show Hope Sponsors!! You've helped change our lives and the lives of 2 soon to be ex-orphans! An anonymous donor is currently pledging $1 for every new "like" on Show Hope's Facebook page up to $25,000. So to help other families like us get on your FB and like Show Hope!!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
A Friend and a Fundraiser :)
My dear friend (and cousin!) is helping to support our adoption by doing her own fundraiser through Mary Kay. We are so very appreciative! In efforts to help her help our kids I'm posting the info below. So if you use Mary Kay or know someone who does please pass it along!
Jacqulyn Myers Would Like to Invite You to Be a Part of The Dan & Ashley Jenkins Adoption Fundraiser! They will earn 25% of sales through July 24, 2011. Visit this website:
www.marykay.com/michelemcgaha and shop on your seat and not your feet! Please be sure to write "Jenkins Adoption" in the comment section so they will get credit for the order. Products will be delivered by Jacqulyn Myers or shipped to you if you don't live near by.
The product is 100% satisfaction guaranteed! Michele McGaha will cover any shipping charges!
For questions or to schedule your own fundraiser, contact Michele McGaha (502)295-6359
michelemcgaha@marykay.com or visit her site above.
Thanks Jacqulyn and Michele!!!
Jacqulyn Myers Would Like to Invite You to Be a Part of The Dan & Ashley Jenkins Adoption Fundraiser! They will earn 25% of sales through July 24, 2011. Visit this website:
www.marykay.com/michelemcgaha and shop on your seat and not your feet! Please be sure to write "Jenkins Adoption" in the comment section so they will get credit for the order. Products will be delivered by Jacqulyn Myers or shipped to you if you don't live near by.
The product is 100% satisfaction guaranteed! Michele McGaha will cover any shipping charges!
For questions or to schedule your own fundraiser, contact Michele McGaha (502)295-6359
michelemcgaha@marykay.com or visit her site above.
Thanks Jacqulyn and Michele!!!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Almost in the "window"
Next week will mark our dossier being in country for 3 months!!! Yes, 3 months. While I had hoped, against odds, that we would have had our referral by now, it wasn't super realistic of me. But that's why we call it hope :) From the beginning we were told a 3-6 month wait for a referral is realistic but sometimes they come sooner. The Jenkins don't fall into the "sometimes" category in this case. Although, I would be elated to retract that statement if we get a referral before next Thursday! So with quite a bit of excitement we enter "the window" of 3-6 months. We have been fairly warned that because we want 2 kids our wait will be closer to 5-6 months. Doesn't make much sense to you? Me either...at first. We thought (with some guidance from those in the know) our case would go faster because we want 2 kids. So if a sibling group came through we would be bumped up on the list. While normally that's the case...there has been a sudden wave of families who want 2 kids also. And 12 of them are ahead of us on the list! While that makes me happy that families are stepping up and taking in 2 kids that don't have a home...I'm honestly bummed that we have to wait longer. I trust that God knows my kids and provided just a time as this for us to grow our family.
So to sum up, we're still waiting and we still need your prayers. That God would prepare us for travel away from the girls, for bringing 2 more kids home, for the girls to adjust, and to be prepared for whatever comes with bringing kids into the Jenkins family that have likely suffered loss and are grieving and lots of other transitional things that comes with international adoption. We are so excited and cannot wait to get them home. We are hoping that God would allow them to get home before Christmas, but if not we will have Christmas when they get here!
So thankful for our friends and family who keep encouraging us on this long journey!
So to sum up, we're still waiting and we still need your prayers. That God would prepare us for travel away from the girls, for bringing 2 more kids home, for the girls to adjust, and to be prepared for whatever comes with bringing kids into the Jenkins family that have likely suffered loss and are grieving and lots of other transitional things that comes with international adoption. We are so excited and cannot wait to get them home. We are hoping that God would allow them to get home before Christmas, but if not we will have Christmas when they get here!
So thankful for our friends and family who keep encouraging us on this long journey!
Monday, May 23, 2011
I600A APPROVAL!!!
Dan came in from cutting grass with the mail in his hands and said, "Be excited!". I looked at him and the mail and back at him. "How excited?" I had to clarify that we were on the same subject...sometimes we aren't :). He just grinned and shook his head yes. And in the mail was a large envelope with the return address "Department of Homeland Security" that we have been waiting 6 long weeks for. In the envelope was a surprisingly boring looking piece of paper that stated "NOTICE OF FAVORABLE DETERMINATION..." Some of the most precious words I have ever read!
So this means that we can receive our referral ANY DAY! It could still be several weeks before we do but it is a wonderful feeling and an answered prayer to finally be so close to seeing the faces of our children.
So this means that we can receive our referral ANY DAY! It could still be several weeks before we do but it is a wonderful feeling and an answered prayer to finally be so close to seeing the faces of our children.
Monday, May 16, 2011
An Officer and some CPK...not a bad week
So after almost 5 weeks, my impatience got the best of me and I called the good old USCIS (United States Citizenship & Immigration Services) to check on the status of our I600A. And we were told that on the 13th we had been assigned an officer to review our application. I was informed that it typically takes 1-2 weeks to receive our approval after being assigned an officer. While I was hoping for something sooner, I'm excited to know something and that our case is being processed. And we are still beating the average on the USCIS site, that says it is typically taking 75 days to approve them so basically don't bother us until it's been 75 days. So I won't bother them, I'll just pray that the officer we are assigned is efficient and having a good week so we can get our approval this week instead of mid-June (which is 75 days from when they received our application). The approval is at the discretion of each individual officer and my agency told me today that some officers have been known to deny applicants when the applicant calls too often to check their status. While this is unfair, I'm sure it is frustrating to not be able to do your job because anxious parents like me keep interrupting your work. Once we get the approval we can get our referral ANY DAY!!! This week our dossier will have been in Ethiopia a month and we are so excited to see the faces of our children!
In other news, California Pizza Kitchen is hosting a fundraiser for us tomorrow and is donating 20% of sales to those who bring in a flyer for our adoption. While any fundraiser is super exciting, I love CPK and haven't eaten there in probably 2 years, so I am especially looking forward to eating dinner with family and friends around some incredible food! If anyone wants to join us let me know and I can email you a flyer!
In other news, California Pizza Kitchen is hosting a fundraiser for us tomorrow and is donating 20% of sales to those who bring in a flyer for our adoption. While any fundraiser is super exciting, I love CPK and haven't eaten there in probably 2 years, so I am especially looking forward to eating dinner with family and friends around some incredible food! If anyone wants to join us let me know and I can email you a flyer!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Waiting is Hard Work!
It's been 3 weeks and 2 days since we went down to the Federal Building and were fingerprinted. No sign from USCIS with our official approval. This isn't unusual...I'm just impatient. Each day when the mail comes I'm like a kid at Christmas. I run out and filter through the bills and junk in hopes to see an envelope with return address "Department of Homeland Security". So far nothing. Our dossier has been in Ethiopia 2 weeks tomorrow. And even though it is making it's way to to the top of the list, I have no idea of it's progress each day. I've never had to wait like this before. Everything else in life had an appointed end. High school and college graduation had a date circled on the calendar. I counted down days to my wedding. Even when I was prego with the girls and the exact date wasn't known, there was an end date. If they weren't out by then, they would be evicted! There is no end date in sight with our adoption. While that might be a little dramatic to say, it's just not known. We could get our USCIS approval today and our referral tomorrow. One family I've met since we started this process literally got their referral a few days after their dossier got to Ethiopia. Or we could get our USCIS approval in a month and a referral in six months. There are so many variables it's completely unpredictable from my viewpoint. I'm sure the wonderful people at our agency are more aware and will have a heads up before me. Thankfully, they don't share all of that inside info until it's certain we have a referral. As if the suspense isn't enough, I would not want a lot of "possibles" and then disappointment.
So we are waiting and praying (a LOT) and raising money to bring our kiddos home. Until now, I have selfishly felt like I was somewhat in control of what happened in my life and that I had worked hard to get what we have. This experience is knowing that WE literally can't do this on our own and are being completely humbled by asking our family and friends to partner with us. And a whole new trust of giving our children, the adoption process, and the cost completely over to the Lord. And no matter how much we think we are giving, we can't out give the one who gave His life for us. He has given the ultimate sacrifice and I can't earn it or work for it. It's a gift of grace.
We are so grateful and humbled by our friends and family who are coming around us in prayer and support. People who are sacrificially giving to help bring our kids home. We'll never be able to express our thanks. But know we love you and appreciate you!
So we are waiting and praying (a LOT) and raising money to bring our kiddos home. Until now, I have selfishly felt like I was somewhat in control of what happened in my life and that I had worked hard to get what we have. This experience is knowing that WE literally can't do this on our own and are being completely humbled by asking our family and friends to partner with us. And a whole new trust of giving our children, the adoption process, and the cost completely over to the Lord. And no matter how much we think we are giving, we can't out give the one who gave His life for us. He has given the ultimate sacrifice and I can't earn it or work for it. It's a gift of grace.
We are so grateful and humbled by our friends and family who are coming around us in prayer and support. People who are sacrificially giving to help bring our kids home. We'll never be able to express our thanks. But know we love you and appreciate you!
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Quiet Time Thoughts & The American Dream
So this has been an interesting week. Monday started off incredibly well with USCIS being so kind as to fingerprint us a month early! Later that day I had an extremely flat tire (a big thanks to the three men who changed it in the rain and to my awesome husband who used his lunch to get a new tire for me). The rest of the week has had ups and downs, not only with adoption stuff but with all things being considered as we look to what the next couple years hold for the Jenkins family. I then ended the week with a fender bender that was completely my fault and thankfully did more damage to me than the other guy. A lot is about to change and while I’m sooo thrilled, I’m overwhelmed at times. So this afternoon I took advantage of the girls nap to sit and be still. Be still and pray and read. I thought about our journey so far and how far we have to go. I also thought about all the encouragement I’ve received and the not so encouraging conversations. And what it really comes down to is it’s not about me. It’s not about me or my inconveniences or emotions. It’s about Jesus and if I’m really trusting Him. We started this journey because we love being parents and want more children. We started because God loves orphans and clearly tells us to care for them. And even more than that because as my sweet Bella Kate sings “I once was lost and now I’m found”. One of the more memorable comments I’ve received about adopting is “So, if you go over there and they aren’t what you want or something is wrong with them, can you pick different ones?” We are not picking out a puppy or buying a car. We are having two children, whatever that means and comes with, they will be ours and we will take care of them just like we do our girls. AND praise God that He does not have that attitude about His children. Because I am not worthy and do not deserve to be adopted by Him. What I deserve is Hell (the Bible says all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God and that the wages of sin is death). But God took me, the one who messes up (a lot, just ask my husband) and by His grace saved me through the death and resurrection of Jesus (The Bible gives hope when it says “If you confess with your mouth Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved). Thank you Lord, for not looking at me and saying she has too many things wrong with her and will be disobedient and has had too much of a past, leave her as an orphan. Instead, He loved me and adopted me and changed my life forever.
Another favorite comment of mine is “wouldn’t you rather give your two kids more in life than giving four just a little?” Okay folks, let’s get honest. Apparently this person is, because even if I thought it I can’t imagine saying it aloud and I’m a little nauseous that that is the American mindset. I have a love/hate relationship with the book Radical by David Platt. I love it because it’s true and I agree with what he has to say. I hate it because I’m living the American Dream. He talks about taking the Jesus of the Bible and turning Him into a comfortable American middle class Jesus. And that is what came to my mind when someone made that comment to me. We’ve made Him a Jesus who says “Sure, leave those kids as orphans to starve or die of preventable disease so that you can take your kids to Disney every year until they graduate high school”. It’s absurd. The Jesus of the Bible says to care for orphans; there is no contingency in there about what that means for the sacrifices we have to make in order to do that. I’m not denying that the budget is going to be a little tighter with two more kids and we’ll have to make some sacrifices. But everyone in the Jenkins family will be clothed, well fed, warm, and live in our comfortable suburban home. Yes they will have to share a room (which they’ll love) and will have a few less toys (they won’t notice!) but will have more than enough! As a note, I’ve taken 2 huge totes of toys from our house and sold them. The girls have not noticed and my living room is still cluttered with play things They won’t go to Disney every year but will go on some fun family vacays to be certain. What we “need” and “want” are two very different things. Even in my soon to be large-family, we will have way more than our needs met. And I’m completely okay with the girls having a few less things. Even after adding two more kids, we will just live a more modest middle class American Dream. My point is, we still aren’t being very radical.
For dinner tonight the girls and I had mac & cheese and green beans. It’s not a bad dinner. A dinner on a budget. Since Dan is at work it was also quick and easy. But I was feeling kinda sorry for myself, because I like to eat. Then I got a text from a sweet friend who is also adopting from Ethiopia . She says, “You know you’re in the process of international adoption when you are eating tuna, grapes, and kool-aid for dinner!” Hilarious I thought and I told her what we had. And immediately I thought, that’s more than our sweet African kids had today.
So you might want to keep praying that we get our referral soon, so I’ll have something to blog about besides my quiet time thoughts J
Monday, April 11, 2011
Yard Sales, BBQ, & Fingerprints, OH MY!
Saturday we had a yard sale to raise some money for our adoption. Anything that we didn't find completely precious and worth saving for the rest of our lives and we couldn't anticipate using in the next 12-18 months we are selling! We did well until about 10:30 when a crazy storm came through. So we will be having another sale in the near future. But a big shout out to those who donated things to sell, to our dear friends the Caples who allowed us to use their garage and yard, and to my mom who watched the girls for us! Thanks for helping us get one step closer to bringing our kids home.
This Thursday, Marks Feed Store is holding a fundraiser for us. They will donate 15% of sales of people who eat there and turn in a coupon. We are excited about seeing our friends and family at dinner and raising money at the same time! So we'd love to see anyone who lives in Louisville come out and eat with us! Let me know if you need a coupon.
The most exciting news of the day is our notice from USCIS. Yesterday I went to get the mail (yes yesterday was Sunday but I forgot to get it Saturday) and in the mail was our notice to go get fingerprinted for immigration! We were elated! But our appointments were scheduled for April 28 and May 5. There is no way I could sit and wait a month. So this morning Dan and I ventured down to the federal building. We walked in and I said, "Hi, we have our appointments on different days and I was hoping we could get our fingerprints done early." The guy smiled and said, "Sure!" I thought wow that was too easy. Another FBI personel came over and they stamped our paperwork then he stopped and said, "What's your date say?" Uh OH, my stomach dropped. He kind of sternly asked, "Is there a reason you're here so early?" "Yes sir, courts in Ethiopia close in August and Sept and if we get fingerprinted today we might take 3 months off our wait to bring our kids home." (Dan later told me how nervous I sounded...that's because I was. This man had the power to turn me away and make me and my kids wait, or let us proceed.) The original guy said, "When you said early, I thought you meant early for today." But after this conversation they agreed to do it! Praise the Lord! I am so relieved and sooo thankful.
We also got an email today that our dossier is at the Ethiopian Embassy in DC today getting authenticated. This is starting to happen!
So I will excitedly check the mail each day and wait for our official approval from USCIS which means we can then officially get a referral!
This Thursday, Marks Feed Store is holding a fundraiser for us. They will donate 15% of sales of people who eat there and turn in a coupon. We are excited about seeing our friends and family at dinner and raising money at the same time! So we'd love to see anyone who lives in Louisville come out and eat with us! Let me know if you need a coupon.
The most exciting news of the day is our notice from USCIS. Yesterday I went to get the mail (yes yesterday was Sunday but I forgot to get it Saturday) and in the mail was our notice to go get fingerprinted for immigration! We were elated! But our appointments were scheduled for April 28 and May 5. There is no way I could sit and wait a month. So this morning Dan and I ventured down to the federal building. We walked in and I said, "Hi, we have our appointments on different days and I was hoping we could get our fingerprints done early." The guy smiled and said, "Sure!" I thought wow that was too easy. Another FBI personel came over and they stamped our paperwork then he stopped and said, "What's your date say?" Uh OH, my stomach dropped. He kind of sternly asked, "Is there a reason you're here so early?" "Yes sir, courts in Ethiopia close in August and Sept and if we get fingerprinted today we might take 3 months off our wait to bring our kids home." (Dan later told me how nervous I sounded...that's because I was. This man had the power to turn me away and make me and my kids wait, or let us proceed.) The original guy said, "When you said early, I thought you meant early for today." But after this conversation they agreed to do it! Praise the Lord! I am so relieved and sooo thankful.
We also got an email today that our dossier is at the Ethiopian Embassy in DC today getting authenticated. This is starting to happen!
So I will excitedly check the mail each day and wait for our official approval from USCIS which means we can then officially get a referral!
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